Their Deeds Shame the Devils in Hell

•June 2, 2014 • Leave a Comment


If you’ve got the stomach to read the news from Ireland these days, you can click here and do so:

Opinion: Mass grave ‘filled to the brim with tiny bones and skulls’ shows how we cherish children.

Their deeds shame the devils of hell. Twisted Catholicism. When religion is spread by the power of laying guilt on others so some remain in total control. And the nuns TODAY, NOW, RIGHT NOW, see no reason to compensate survivors or families… “Hey! If you survived that’s your compensation!”


There are no words for the lack of any sense of shame on the part of these religious orders and zero sense of accountability.  This is going on in Ireland in a very dramatic show down between those harmed and their families vs the nuns who couldn’t care less.  They are beyond all that.  Much the same as the LCWR is toward victims of abuse by its member communities’ sisters.  They are beyond responding to this.  To do so would sully their pious reputation among their blind supporters, and would cast a bit of mud on their ridicule of hierarchy.


What creates this kind of compartmentalization of conscience?  It’s got to have some survival benefit to be so strong in the religious and clergy.  How does hypocrisy rationalize itself when cloaked in religious life that preaches to others about social justice and how to live by some Catholic moral code?    It has got to have some benefit or the Church would not be in the kind of state it is in right now, and we would not be finding tanks of dead babies in Irish convent gardens.


What is the price of power?  At what cost did one emerge from the bog to clerical heights, or from a poor neighborhood or family in the States to teach our young in Catholic schools?  Was the cost integrity?  Was it mental illness with a religious uniform?  Was it the cost of one’s soul?  What kind of families, what kind of parents sent their kids off to religious life and priesthood without a conscience, and what kind of superiors never noticed the lack of conscience in their predatory, and cruel novices and professed members?  What is the price of twisted Catholicism and its perks?


The price of trusting them is innocence, and sometimes mental stability, and all too often, at the end of the day, one’s Faith, and even one’s life if healing is not found.  When is the price too high?  When is it high enough for the Vatican to crack down on their sickos, both priests and nuns, and force them to step up to the plate and do right by their victims?


I honestly have never believed that pedophiles should be in civil jails with general population.  I think an island with an electric fence is fine, just because they are sick and we have hospitals for sick criminals.   But the superiors of these religious orders need to be jailed.


Just my opinion, as the stomach turns over these dead babies, and the many more to be discovered, and all those who’ve died with their wounds never healed.  Jail is fine for those superiors.

Hell is empty




SNAP vs Pope Francis’ Meeting With Sexual Abuse Victims

•May 30, 2014 • Leave a Comment


I just finished reading this article (May 30, 2014)  in the National Catholic Reporter: SNAP is wrong to discourage victims from meeting the pope, by Mary Gail Frawley-O’Dea.

At the end of the article it states that Mary Gail Frawley-O’Dea is author of Perversion of Power: Sexual Abuse in the Catholic Church and a psychologist who has been working with sexual abuse survivors for 30 years.  (You can get her book at that link to Amazon!)

As a survivor of sexual abuse by Sister Juanita Barto, a Sister of Mercy, I disagree with SNAP’s position and strongly support and encourage this meeting between the victims and Pope Francis. I only wish the pope would address the re-victimization of those abused by religious women when the LCWR continuously refuses to meet with victims of abuse by vowed sisters and nuns. The Vatican and most Catholics ignore sexual and physical abuse by female religious, wounds carried for life by their victims. Seems only the Irish get how powerful the nuns have been in the lives of children and youth.  That the pope continues to ignore this reality hurts many, and I think harms the Church further.  It certainly does not demand the nuns better themselves or have the integrity required for true respect of their public works.  IMO, the current deluge of respect and adulation poured out on the LCWR flows from those who are either ignorant of the crimes being ignored by the LCWR, or who simply agree nuns are indeed above the law or any code of morals or ethics, i.e. they belong on that pedestal they enjoy.  Personally, I have lost all respect for Catholics who choose to live with their heads up their arses regarding crimes by nuns and the apathy toward victims by the LCWR–not that that matters much.

On the other hand, Pope Francis IS meeting with victims.  If he refused to do so, what would that gesture be called by SNAP? I am weary of the arrogance that sees no good in any effort made.  If Pope Francis had invited SNAP leaders to Rome would that have been the perfect solution?   Francis seems to be damned if he does and damned if he doesn’t.  I applaud this meeting.  Is it perfect?  Of course not.  Is it something?  YES.  Is it sincere?  I choose to believe it is.  Those who choose to damn everything the pope does as insincere will never be happy with anything done.  I will not stand in that camp, nor will I support it.

In this instance, I stand with Pope Francis and I am grateful for this planned meeting, and I pray it be Graced.

Why is There No Outrage Over Nuns Who Abuse Children and Youth?

•May 16, 2014 • Leave a Comment


On May 15th, Brian Roewe of The National Catholic Reporter writes:

“An open letter to the pope has asked for an apology to U.S. women religious and an intervention on their behalf in their ongoing reform discussions with the Vatican’s doctrinal congregation.,,”

Not one Catholic, liberal or conservative, is demanding the nuns apologize to the victims of sexual abuse by their members. Why do Catholics choose to believe all the sin is on the male clergy, and none on the female religious. Denial is hurting the victims and the LCWR do not seem to care.  Victims suffer a lifetime, some commit suicide.  Where is the outrage?

Read it and barf:

Dear Pope Francis     

We write with respect and gratitude for your extraordinary leadership in our Church.

Sadly, we also write with concern and dismay at the behavior that Cardinal Gerhard Müller recently exhibited toward women leaders of the Leadership Conference of Women Religious (LCWR) and especially toward Dr. Elizabeth Johnson CSJ. 

Cardinal Müller’s preemptive public criticism of LCWR leadership and Dr. Johnson, one of the most beloved and respected theologians in the world, eclipsed any opportunity for public dialogue. 

This communicates that faithful Catholic female leaders are disrespected and discounted in our Church.

On numerous occasions you have expressed a desire to expand leadership opportunities for women.  We respectfully suggest that the place to begin is to listen to faithful women who are already exercising leadership. 

We ask you to personally intervene with Cardinal Müller and Archbishop Sartain and remove the unjust mandates imposed on LCWR over two years ago. 

In addition, a public apology to Dr. Johnson and LCWR leadership would speak volumes about the institutional Church’s intent to truly listen to women and honor their voices. 

In closing, we express our love and solidarity with you as together we joyfully proclaim the rich diversity revealed in the Good News of Jesus Christ, a message ever ancient yet ever new.

Sincerely yours,

The Nun Justice Project
American Catholic Council
Association of Roman Catholic Womenpriests 
Catholics Speak Out / Quixote Center
Call To Action
Federation of Christian Ministries/RCFCC 
National Coalition of American Nuns
New Ways Ministry
Pax Christi Maine
Roman Catholic Womenpriests – USA
Southeastern Pennsylvania Women’s Ordination Conference
Voice of the Faithful
Women’s Ordination Conference





The Evolution of Consciousness, of Conscience, of Self Awareness, and the Making of Honest Nuns

•May 14, 2014 • Leave a Comment

I’ve been targeting the LCWR for good reason, but not with hate…  I think some important distinctions need to be made regarding my own attitude toward the LCWR.  I want to be honest about it too.   I have a single agenda regarding the LCWR, and do not agree with the Vatican on everything.  I am using the current pity party being thrown by the media for the nuns to advance my own agenda, and that of other victims of abuse by nuns which the LCWR refuse to address directly and with sincere compassion, and even empathy.

Yesterday, Jamie Manson wrote in the National Catholic Reporter that it is Time to face facts: Pope Francis agrees with the doctrinal assessment of LCWR; Manson states Pope Francis agrees with Cardinal Müller‘s concerns that the Evolution of Consciousness is too close to the gnostic heresy which denies the Incarnation and the need of Christ’s message and mission to bring God’s love to us.  This is in connection with the bishops’ critique of Fordham theologian, Elizabeth Johnson, CSJ, and her work on the Evolution of Consciousness (see the article in NCR on that too), and the fact that the LCWR had Johnson as a speaker after her book was put on the Vatican $#it List (which should have made it a best-seller).  Manson also speaks of other differences between the pope and (not just) the nuns, and describes Francis’ attitude and totally negative understanding of feminism–an understanding held by men who cling only to negative extremist examples of feminism, rather than looking at the equality feminism promotes!

So I am suggesting that those (victims or any Catholics) trying to understand the LCWR read this article:Time to face facts: Pope Francis agrees with the doctrinal assessment of LCWR in the National Catholic Reporter to have a more complete picture of the current difficulty and pain felt by the Sisters regarding the response they recently got from the Congregation of the Doctrine of the Faith’s Cardinal Müller.   I am not easy on the LCWR, but I am trying to put some things in perspective, and understand how they can make a difference  in the issue of sexual abuse by nuns, the topic of interest to their victims.

I was very impressed by the comments and information within this response by Marx Hubbard, mentioned in the above article, during the meeting at the Vatican with LCWR.  (The list of books alone is reason to read the article if one is serious about why we are here on this Earth, in this beautiful Cosmos!)

I was struck in particular with the questions with which she ends her comments:

  • What is my unique contribution to the conscious evolution of humanity?
  • What is my greater life purpose?
  • What can I do, small or large to contribute toward a positive future for all?
  • What are the purposes of the heart of Christ?
If Christians, and vowed religious in particular, have any questions to ask and answer themselves, then ask of others, it certainly includes these.  The basic meaning of What’s it all about Alfie (or whatever your name is)?  Orthodoxy will come up with–or at least express the answers differently than some others interested in this topic (and that’s part of the Vatican’s concern here).  But the questions are vital to a life of Faith and deepening spirituality.

Flashback:  Sister Mary Laura, RSM was a lovely young sister who taught me in first grade at Queen of Angels in L.I.C. back in the late 50’s.  She made a tremendous impact on my life, representing forever the innocent image of the good sister who cared about the kids in her keeping from 9 AM to 3 PM each day.  I have only wonderful memories of her, and some very funny ones.  She was my introduction to Mother Catherine McAuley’s Sisters of Mercy and I could not have had a better intro.  Among the many things I remember about her lessons is what she told us about being Sister and her purpose in life. She said that if she could help save even one single soul by serving as a Sister, then her life would be a success!  I never ever forgot that, and actually took it to heart for my own life.  It’s one of my foundational thoughts, a motivating thought.  I will never do great things in worldly terms, and I’ve never had much of an interest in doing so.  I think that was partly as a result of taking Sister Mary Laura’s words deep into my heart as a child.  I wanted to love God that much too.  To her words I have added many other words of wisdom from my parents and older brothers, and other good Sisters, teachers, priests, spiritual directors, mentors, and my very wise husband, who have each been personal gifts to my life.  Because of all these good people and their wisdom, life is very simple, and, frankly, very focused.  Wounds have healed leaving scars only as reminders and inspiration to share some good news, and over the years life has become very peaceful.  I am glad of that.  Very grateful. Aging brings its own physical challenges, so having deep inner peace is a blessing while dealing with physical adjustments.  Peace comes from asking those questions, either in those words or similar ones, and answering them over the course of a lifetime.  Joy accompanies the peace when one can share the peace with others in the many relationships one develops, careers one has, communities in which one lives and loves.

I think reading Marx Hubbards comments and questions hit me tonight because I believe that the LCWR is made up and represents good women.  I know I attack their refusal to address and even embrace victims’ groups.  I equally attack the reasons they refuse to address the issue of abuse by their own members, and their victims.  There is no excuse for their hiding under the guise of some kind of technicality of hierarchical authority and its restrictions.  Such hogwash!  However, none of that means they are not generally good women.  How many of us had to hit rock bottom before being able to face our history of sexual or physical abuse?  Why would the 40% of abused nuns, and their enablers be any different, any stronger than the rest of us who have been abused and have hidden it and hidden from the reality of it?  I do feel Mercy toward them.  I do.

Again, those reading this who have been abused and are content to take aim and fire might consider shutting up for a bit, and hearing me out, or just closing this blog and go be angry elsewhere.  Anger has its place, but, imo, only as far as it works toward a positive outcome.  IMO Hubbards’ questions refocus us toward what is ultimately important, and inspires me, at least, to use my original rage at evil to overcome it, not merely punish the abuser(s). 

The LCWR and the members of all religious communities would actually be taking a prophetic lead in the Church and the world if they would look within their own wounded souls (all of them–both the 40% of them who have been abused, including those who have repeated it, and the 60% who indicate they were not abused but still ignore the issue in their ranks, thus allowing and thereby encouraging repeat abuse) and be honest about how they can make a major difference in the Church today regarding this scandalous heartache of sexual misconduct and abuse.  By examining the well-documented effect of sexual abuse, and facing their own demons within, as victims, they then could be a humble source of healing for their own wounded members, and for the victims of their wounded members.

THAT is a major way the vowed religious women of the Roman Catholic Church could, if they cared,

  • honestly contribute to the conscious evolution of humanity,
  • courageously fulfill their greater life purpose,
  • contribute toward a positive future for all, 
  • and realize the purposes of the heart of Christ?

Before trying to play the prophet to the Church and the world on any other social justice issue, they need to look in the mirror and deal with their secrets.  They will be stronger and more respectable women for doing so.

In my opinion,




Without Mercy

•May 13, 2014 • Leave a Comment

Without Mercy

© 2003 Cáit Finnegan

Without Mercy what would I be?
At least more whole, from what I see.
The blind eye turned away from me
While I trusted innocently.

young cait

Without Mercy what would I be?
Secure, I’m sure, or hope I’d be.
My innocence was raped from me
By Mercy, sacrilegiously.

Without Mercy what would I be?
Joyful, and aging peacefully!
I wonder what is left of me,
to fight for life courageously?

Without Mercy what would I be?
A Roman Catholic, possibly!
I have my Faith to set me free
From Mercy and its company.

Clearly, Mercy in this poem refers to the Sisters of Mercy, and not the Mercy of God, which has indeed helped me as I heal, so that today I intend to spend my old age speaking out without fear so others do not have to live the pain as I did, affecting all whom I loved.   I will live my old age encouraging the nuns to face reality and grow up.  I am at peace, and I’d like to see more of that for victims, survivors and for abusers as well–all to heal.

The Poor Sisters

•May 11, 2014 • Leave a Comment

The poor sisters are under attack by the Vatican.  The NY Times is crying for them, the poor dears, and you can read it by clicking here.

I was going to cry for them too, but, uh, on second thought NO.  They are playing this up and still ignoring their victims.

My response to the NY Times

Ever wonder if the pope may know more than you do about the nuns? Just a thought.

Everyone has the nuns held up as saints and angels. Anyone notice they have been deafeningly silent on the issue of abuse in the Church? There are reasons for that. According to a study commissioned by the sisters 40% of their own membership admitted to being sexually abused before or after entering the convent. Abuse needs to be dealt with, not just run away from, and if it is dealt with about 30% of victims still repeat the abusive cycle. 70% do not–if it is dealt with. So, the silence about abuse? Do the math. When the LCWR grow up and act like responsible leaders (note how they ridicule the mishandling of this by the bishops) and work with victims’ groups, and help in the healing process with victim/survivors then they might be a bit more respected for actually being mature women and honest, and not just highly educated academics and social workers who are ignoring their own victims. Just do the math.


Sure, I know, I am being repetitious and boring.  But suck it up, the victims are carrying a bigger cross.  If folks care, they will contact the NY Times, and other papers covering the recent news about the Vatican and the LCRW.  Contact SNAP and offer support and donations if you can…  Do something, if you care, and if you’d like to assure that the unresolved rage of previous sexual abuse of sisters is not passed on to others, to children and youth in any form.  It can be a purged Church, if the faithful really want it.


It’s NOT Going Away!

•May 9, 2014 • Leave a Comment

Nuns ‘Abused Hundreds of Children’

Will the Vatican recognize that abused nuns repeat abuse unless they are healed, or unless they mature?  The rage comes out in many ways–sexual abuse, physical and emotional abuse, and it is ALL spiritual abuse by women who are vowed to God to live the evangelical counsels, or the counsels of perfection as some call them.

SILENCE is a killer.

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